Well, I've been a cross between disinterested, scattered, and depressed for a while. Thanks to my wife and a really good Psychologist, I've made moderate improvement in all the above. I take meds for AADD and alertness and it's like I've been released, whew!!!
The point to this is I need to become assertive again, but without my addictive and agressive personality showing up. I've spent the better part of the last 10 years believing that if I treat people the way I would be treated, everything would be just dandy....well, some parts yes and some not even close!! I met and married a wonderful woman;the problem is that when I met her, I brought me along. This is a healthy relationship for the both of us. This puts me in unchartered territory, never been there before....this takes love, paitence, tolerance, prayer and all the other stuff I am not accomplished in using on a daily/regular basis!!
While I do think God has a terrific sense of humor, He would not have brought me this far to not keep teaching me, I do have faith. I will continue to treat people well, remembering I'm not junk, stupid or a doormat, and giving Him all the praise and credit for all He gives me and allows me to give!! That's all now....always more later.....